Kellen's Journey: 2017

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Patterns of Life - 2

If you'd like to read my earlier post about the 'Patterns of Life' click Here :)

Ok, this is really cool! In 2015 the amazing staff at Saint Alphonsus gifted us Kellen's tile on the Patterns of Life Memorial and Honorarium. And now they have added a tile for Mason as well-- right near Kellen's! This is seriously so awesome and so touching!

Thank You Christina and the Saint Al's team! Weston and I truly appreciate your kindness! It is so precious for us to see their names by each other.
Thank you!

Kellen's 2nd Birthday

I know this post is a little late coming but I wanted to share Kellen's 2nd Birthday. It's honestly hard to believe it's been two years. Some days it seems like a lifetime ago and others it seems like it was just yesterday.
On Kellen's actual birthday Wes unfortunately had to work and we weren't able to do anything. To be honest, it was a rough day for me. I was mixed with grief and joy over the life Kellen had. I was elated with the birth of Mason yet deep down I am still grieving the brother he would never know... It's a weird emotional state to be in. And I'm not sure it ever fully goes away..
So on what I call Kellen's 'death day' (Jan. 29th) our immediate families (the ones who could make it) released balloons at Kellen's grave. As I stood watching the balloons go higher and higher and eventually disappearing I felt an odd sense of peace.
Afterwards Weston, Mason and I visited an aquarium to celebrate Kellen's life. We wanted to do something fun as a family in remembrance.

Happy Birthday sweet boy, we love you and can't wait to see you again.

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Mason

Hello! It's been awhile since I last posted and a lot has been going on. The first part of this post is something I wrote for the blog last year but never shared...

05/06/2016

Last week Weston and I found out we are expecting again. Ahhhh! I have so many emotions! Excited, anxious, scared, overjoyed, guilty, expectant. So many things all at the same time! We weren't exactly trying but we weren't preventing either so I was a little surprised when I saw two little lines appear on the test.

Kellen occupies a lot of my thoughts and it scares me that suddenly I have another baby to think about - It's surreal to think that we might have another baby soon. This baby is SUCH a blessing and we are praying fiercely that he/she is strong and healthy. There is so much anxiety for me this time - I could really use prayer.

Last year someone told me that we (her and I) had lost our innocence in pregnancy. Meaning we would never have the carefree, joyous attitude that other expectant mothers have and I believe her now more than ever! But despite how I feel I trust God and believe that He has a perfect plan for Kellen's little sibling.

We have told family and a few friends but have tried to keep it quiet as I am only around 6 weeks along...

Then a few months later...
08/12/2016