I am finding that the holidays can be a very difficult time when you are missing someone you love and as I was shopping in the toy department I felt that familiar sting of emptiness. Each toy I saw reminded of Kellen's absence.
So...
I pretended for just a moment that I was shopping for a boy waiting for me at home. Perhaps he was with his daddy for the evening while I went to do some shopping. After I was done I would hurry home to get him to bed. After he had been given a bath and an appropriate amount of snuggling had been given I would read him a story and rock him to sleep. I would kiss him goodnight and then Wes and I would go quietly out to the living room and wrap his gifts...
Okay. I know parenthood is not easy and not always fun but there is nothing I wouldn't give to be able to raise my child and see the curiosity and wonderment in his eyes...
I finished picking out a few toys, wiped a tear and came back to reality.
My hope in doing this is that Kellen's memory can bring joy to others during the Christmas season. And it does my soul good to honor Kellen in this way.
Love and Blessings,
Diana
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